For the people who follow this...

More to come within the weekend. Since my trip to the ER I have looked to change a lot of things about my life. Since that day I feel changed and aware of my surroundings more. I thank god for sending my angels to protect me That was a bad week for me and I know that its going to be better from here on out.
Clathyn
Again thanks for reading!

what a day!

what a day it is today!

thought it would be easy

First of all thanks for reading in advance!
So I dont really know how to begin this. I can tell you I thought today would be a walk in the park. I had a break between my shifts. On that break I made an appointment to get contacts, check on benefits for 2010 and to make sure I was on target for my braces. After my break I was prepping flights and saw M was going to be on the flight. I hadnt talked to her since sunday. I have wanted to call but know I wouldnt get an answer since she moved on to "Mike the cousin" When i saw her get off the elevator all I could think was DAMN! girl looks good. I chose to print off her boarding pass and give her a good seat on the plane. Not a word more was uttered. I did notice she put a bag on my locker. It had my perry ellis, oakley glass case, MR. Perfect(a bear I gave her) a wife beater and a pic that I gave her. When I saw the bag my heart sank. From that point on I didnt know what to say. From that point on I just went on with my business. I really wanted to say something to her but didnt know where the line is. Now I dont know if I will ever talk or see her again. What to do blogger land! Anyone have advice?
Clathyn

South Carolina here we come!!!!!

Today I decided to head to South Carolina next week like I was going to during my vacation. I am stoked to head south and meet my father's fiance'. Lately I have felt the pressure relieved but at the same time sad. I feel like I lost a good friend in this mess. I know I am going to have to deal with it Thursday night since I am working a double. I think its for the best. I am excited because Onyx is on the way to being a running car and I am moving this week to Sea tac! I am glad that its going the way I want to. Finally life is coming full circle for me. Thanks for the people that truly backed me. And for the ones that doubted me here I am!

Clathyn

P.S.

Here are a couple of pics of karma from imax 3d

Happy Bday Erin

Wow its been a while since I have blogged. first of all I had a good but depressing day at dinner. It seems like everyone has their family and I am all alone. They bring their spouse and kids and I fight to get seven days with my kid and I cant seem to keep a woman happy long enough to marry me. Tonight my sister offered to put me on Eharmony. I laughed and thought WTF? But she was just trying to help me. Daily I feel less of a human. I feel like cant get a head. I looked at the military but I would give up everything I have fought for with Karma. What to do? Also in the mix of things I am mourning the loss of my grandmother. All in all I just want to be happy with a good family, a great wife and intelligent kids. Is that too much to ask for?

The first day of the year.

If today reflects on how the rest of the year is going to turn out I am excited and sad all in one. Excited for progression in lost friendships and sad for an sixteenth of the time that its going to be bad. In Twenty Oh Nine I plan on making this a year that is remembered. I have committed myself to all FOUR livestrong challenges. I am hoping that my mother and others committed to helping find a cure for cancer will tag along for the adventure. I feel that this is a year of growth, structure(financial, physical and mental). In this year I want to be a better friend to those who truly need a good friend and going above and beyond for people who don't really care for me. In the past five months my life has gone through a little bit of change. From my foot injury and not working, to putting a relationship to rest and finally opening my eyes and see I was getting played(not in a relationship way, more or less an evil financial way). I asked myself how can I get to where I want to go as a human being? My answer was to dedicate a part of my life to something that I am passionate about and is going to benefit more than me. This year I am also going to focus on my family who usually is put to the side when work calls. I want to gain that special relationship back with family members that I havent had in a while. This is just the begining to how I plan on improving my 2009! Like always thanks for giving a little bit of your time to see whats on my mind!

C.3