Neon Moon

This song brings back memories. Brooks and Dunn in concert at the Gorge. Scott, Lisa, Rita and I went to it back in like 2001. This song to me represents loneliness, alcoholism and depression. I cant say I've had the the last two. Loneliness yes. I can relate very well to that. As you may know I left a bad situation and since then have been looking for something to compare to what that was. Everything starts out nice. I still think you either have to say eff it and know this is the one or get tired of searching for that one. I am at the point in my life were I feel like I have found her. I don't really know how to share my feelings. I do feel that if I don't hurry up and act I am going to have the what ifs.... We all know what the what ifs are.(Jason Derulo has a song to describe it). I know my clock isn't ticking but would like to settle down and get into a grove to start my career and have at least one more kid. I know that doesn't sound like me but I want to be able to be a part of a life from 0-graduation. I want to be able to go to daycare and pick him/her up. See the smile and joy daily. Well I have to get ready for my second shift to start. More blogs coming soon!

Clay 

In this crazy life of mine...

Its that time of year I am excited for my vacation around the corner!  After the last Irop in December I've been burnt out. I thought that was going to be the end of me. Luckily my determination and drive has helped me through the last three months. I've been in my apartment a year and at first I enjoyed it and now I truly love it! In the last year its been a time of growth. I've figured out how to live within my budget, improve my people skills and I am figuring out what I am looking for and what I am going to stay away from in relationships. I've always wanted to keep a friendship afterwards. In my opinion if I had a relationship with you there was a friendship there also. Anyways I am off topic. I feel like I've grown closer to my father in the last year as he has gone through the surgery to remove the cancer and chemo afterwards. In my opinion my father is a champion. I was thankful January 24th when he found out he was cancer free. He is still doing chemo to attack the possibility of cancer in his blood. I leave Thursday night to either Boston or New York JFK to connect to Charlotte and connecting to Columbia South Carolina. Its a homecoming I have been waiting for. As my life progresses I realize some of the small things I sweat I shouldnt and some of the small things I should value I dont. My homecoming is something that I anticipate will be a growth time for me.  Well its time for me to go back to work. More blogging soon. thanks for following my blog. Leave a comment if you are brave enough!
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