Happy Bday Erin

Wow its been a while since I have blogged. first of all I had a good but depressing day at dinner. It seems like everyone has their family and I am all alone. They bring their spouse and kids and I fight to get seven days with my kid and I cant seem to keep a woman happy long enough to marry me. Tonight my sister offered to put me on Eharmony. I laughed and thought WTF? But she was just trying to help me. Daily I feel less of a human. I feel like cant get a head. I looked at the military but I would give up everything I have fought for with Karma. What to do? Also in the mix of things I am mourning the loss of my grandmother. All in all I just want to be happy with a good family, a great wife and intelligent kids. Is that too much to ask for?