Lately I have been busy with work, Karma and the family but I have just felt so lonely. This sounds bad but I think "What are you doing? You are 26 and still single!" I think once I really strived to have a family, well the perfect family and now at 26 I am starting to think that I am better to focus on Karma the days that I have her and after that just focus on my career and credit score. I think that with the emotions and experiences that I have had in the last two years I have been turned cold. From leaving a situation that was not healthy for Karma turned into a court case to Erin getting cancer and passing away and to top that off starting a new relationship and it being a good relationship with no real problems and it being ruined by the parents not being accepting of me and me not wanting to put in effort to change the opinion of me not being spiritually up to par for the situation(which has made me feel inadequate spritually so I dont want to participate). Everyday at work I see people happy to leave Seattle and people sad to leave. Everytime I see the couple re-uniting after not seeing eachother for days weeks months it makes me refer to the happy times that were created coming or goin from Sea-tac. Now at 26 I just wonder whats around the corner for Mr. Clathyn and if I am ever going to find happiness like I had before or a new level of happiness...
